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Saturday, October 25, 2003
I was planning on going to the Japanese Club's presentation of Perfect Blue, but I really don't feel like going anywhere. It's just one of those nights. Earlier I was going to a band competition in Columbia, SC but my friend couldn't go. He was my ride. That sucks balls. So any fun I was going to have today is ruined. No fun tonight. My roommate's going somewhere, so I'll have an hour or two to myself; a time of reflection I like to say (or was that a time to kill?). Fun. Something I never seem to be having. Something I crave, yet frequently deny myself.
Studying. That's what I'll do on my Saturday night. Studying. Something I always suppose to be doing. Something that's not fun. Having fun is so abnormal to me now...it's funny when you think about it. All I do is sit in this boring room and watch tv. Every once in a while I'll play a video game. Sure, that's fun...but it's the kind of fun I'm tired of having. I haven't really played video games in 2 weeks now. I'm just tired of them. Sure they are satisfying, but they're not satisfying my cravings. I want to hang out with people and feel like I belong. Sure I'm hanging out with people, but these people and I are on totally different thought processes. It's feels like it's pointless to make an effort - it feels like I'll never find the types of people I'm comfortable hanging out with. Sure I've got a friend here and there, but there's no posse. Back at home I have a posse, lol. Here, I have no posse what-so-ever. I also don't get any posse (buahaha...come on, it's funny). Oh yeah, I was talking about studying. I really need to do that, so I guess I'll go ahead and do it. This is what studying does to me. ¶6:55 PM e-mail me (0) comments (0) commentsBack To Blog top September 2002 / October 2002 / November 2002 / December 2002 / January 2003 / February 2003 / March 2003 / April 2003 / May 2003 / June 2003 / July 2003 / August 2003 / September 2003 / October 2003 / November 2003 / December 2003 / January 2004 / February 2004 / March 2004 / April 2004 / May 2004 / June 2004 / July 2004 / August 2004 / September 2004 / October 2004 / November 2004 / December 2004 / January 2005 / February 2005 / March 2005 / April 2005 / May 2005 / June 2005 / July 2005 / August 2005 / September 2005 / October 2005 / November 2005 / December 2005 / January 2006 / February 2006 / March 2006 / April 2006 / May 2006 / August 2006 / October 2006 / December 2006 / April 2007 / August 2007 / September 2007 / November 2007 / January 2008 / February 2008 / March 2008 / April 2008 /
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